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12/12/2019 5:23 pm  #1


My Journey in Healing

Hello. It has been over a year since I last logged on here and probably longer since I last posted. I hope all is well.

This will be a long one but I will do my best to be clear and concise.

As a child, I went through something I come to understand as soul loss. I was shoved and locked inside a closet as a child in kindergarten and in second grade I was told I would never be intelligent enough to go to college. I was beat on, mentally and physically by people in schools, daycare and at home. So 99% of the time. And my emotions never grew at all, even to this day. I am unsure how to love and receive love, I made a little breakthrough on this yesterday though

Around the age of 8 ish or so, my soul shattered. I wasn't able to handle the pain anymore and so my eyes glazed over. I became scared of my own power, I never wanted to hurt others as I have been by other's power. I became in all terms, a robot. Unthinking. I actually remember the day I regained enough of my own soul back to break that threshold of robot and the lowest of human to become consciously aware enough of my own surroundings. I had an audible (to me) snap inside my head when that happened and wasn't the first time.

For the next twenty plus years, I walked through a living hell. For the first decade or so, everyday was this hell. Slowly though, I climbed out of it with the help of so many beings. Thank you, all of you. Eventually, each year got easier and then it kept getting easier and easier the more I regained my power and soul.

Now twenty plus years later...

A couple of days ago I had a dream that I was this fractured mirror of the rainbow. Each piece was a piece of my soul that I lost and have now regained. Cracks are seen between each piece. So I have started to rejoin them together within myself by working in my past, thus altering my present and therefore shaping my future to something more aligned with me being the best version of myself.

Thank you for reading, much love, joy and peace to you all!!!

 

 

12/13/2019 9:18 am  #2


Re: My Journey in Healing

https://cdn.boardhost.com/emoticons/grin.png
 Thank You for this heart felt report. You are reclaiming your beauty within. You are growing and finding yourself. That is wonderful !!! Now build your self a medicine Shield showing the world who you are. It can be a shield or just a drawing or a computer graphic showing who you are. Then post your shield here for all of us to see! So that we can honor you and your wonderful healing journey! https://cdn.boardhost.com/emoticons/rambo.png


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12/13/2019 3:11 pm  #3


Re: My Journey in Healing

 Hi Sangorth
I can relate to alot of what you have said. i was very shy as a child aware of spirit since birth and ridiculed for it,by so called family, my grandmother helped me .
when i was walking home from school one day, a blonde haired girl came behind me and commmited the biggest mistake she could ever had done, i had very long Black hair.and she started pulling it,
 I turned around and gave her the biggest thrashing of her life. word got out what i had done to her and nobody ever called me names again.
 There comes a time in your life when you have to stand up for yourself.
 i grew up knowing my mother didnt like me.
 i used to ask if i was adopted as i was treated diifferently from my sibling.
 it does have an impact on you,
 im glad you are finding yourself again.

 


The spoken word always comes back as whispers in the wind.
 

12/13/2019 7:17 pm  #4


Re: My Journey in Healing

Thunderbow wrote:

https://cdn.boardhost.com/emoticons/grin.png
 Thank You for this heart felt report. You are reclaiming your beauty within. You are growing and finding yourself. That is wonderful !!! Now build your self a medicine Shield showing the world who you are. It can be a shield or just a drawing or a computer graphic showing who you are. Then post your shield here for all of us to see! So that we can honor you and your wonderful healing journey! https://cdn.boardhost.com/emoticons/rambo.png


http://stormrunneraz.tripod.com/flowering_tree.jpg

I enjoy feeling the energy associated with the thought of doing this! I will post my Medicine Shield here when I get it completed! https://cdn.boardhost.com/emoticons/grin.png

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12/13/2019 7:20 pm  #5


Re: My Journey in Healing

Native spirit wrote:

 Hi Sangorth
I can relate to alot of what you have said. i was very shy as a child aware of spirit since birth and ridiculed for it,by so called family, my grandmother helped me .
when i was walking home from school one day, a blonde haired girl came behind me and commmited the biggest mistake she could ever had done, i had very long Black hair.and she started pulling it,
 I turned around and gave her the biggest thrashing of her life. word got out what i had done to her and nobody ever called me names again.
 There comes a time in your life when you have to stand up for yourself.
 i grew up knowing my mother didnt like me.
 i used to ask if i was adopted as i was treated diifferently from my sibling.
 it does have an impact on you,
 im glad you are finding yourself again.

 

I understand. I am sorry that happened to you! Thank you!

How has your journey gone in taking your power back?

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12/14/2019 3:20 pm  #6


Re: My Journey in Healing

=16.25pxI Took back control from the point i stood up for myself.
my grandmother had a big influence on me.i ran away from home at 10 i went to live with my grandmother. our time was sitting in the cemetery ,my grandmyother asking me what i could see.and to embrace my gift.she had a stroke many years later and lost the ability to speak.
but words were not needed,i understood what she wanted,
 


The spoken word always comes back as whispers in the wind.
 

2/14/2020 6:56 pm  #7


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Sometime, I plan on making a physical shield and I plan on using this as a template.

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2/14/2020 7:14 pm  #8


Re: My Journey in Healing

Native spirit wrote:

=16.25pxI Took back control from the point i stood up for myself.
my grandmother had a big influence on me.i ran away from home at 10 i went to live with my grandmother. our time was sitting in the cemetery ,my grandmyother asking me what i could see.and to embrace my gift.she had a stroke many years later and lost the ability to speak.
but words were not needed,i understood what she wanted,
 

Thank you for sharing that

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